good like this

& . . . 

i don't want him anymore.

for months

he was all i could think about ~

we 'fell in love'

over the internet

pictures were sent

sexting was tried

& now

my memory is reminding me

of the flags i chose

to overlook.

'do you want to give me your phone #?'

(days 1 & 2)

'nah, i'm good like this'

 . . . but of course

eventually,

i gave in.

about the same

with agreeing to meet;

(but thankfully,

we never have.)

in less than 4 1/2 months

he managed to wheedle me out of $4,000. ~

but i take full responsibility for that.

i knew by then he was playing me,

yet i continued to stay in the game.

that's MY fault.

MY bad.

MY illness

at work in me.

& now,

he's still trying

to get even MORE money 

to help bring him HERE

to stay

WITH ME . . .

anticipating, i'm sure

i'll give in like before.

but y'know what?

'nah - i'm good like this.'

once you open up your home

you can never get them gone

& you might even

mistakenly

MARRY ONE.

pegw.

2020